FML

I feel that I am in a rutt. I feel I have no creative flow coming from me. I hate this feeling. I have now been with T-Mobile for over nine months. It sucks balls. Since I first started working I have always been in the sales/customer service field...I think it is something that I am good at...I have just reached my point. I hate my job with a passion. When I walk in those double doors I feel the odds are against me and that shit sucks. I asked for a transfer so long ago and still haven't got one yet everyone else moves, I feel like my boss doesn't like me, I dont speak Spanish and I work South side so it makes no sense at all to have me there for that reason alone. RAAAAR! I can honestly say that I try with my sales and use what tools are laid out for me...still it's not working. If I can sale a Infinity to a drug Lord without a test drive...I know something is messed up when it comes to me and a cell phone. I feel like this really is my last month with the company just because I haven't met my metrics. I am ok with this because I don't want to be there. I also don't want to be without a job. I know I can get unemployment but still...I have never been let go from a job...nor have I ever left a job without having a back up job to move right into to. This makes me so nervous. Tim said that he would help me with whatever I needed. I hate asking people for help though. I know you have to ask sometimes but I just hate that feeling of nagging someone or even more I hate the feeling that I would never want them to think that I am using them. Ugh! Wish me luck as I continue to apply for new jobs and search. :)