Over And Over Again

If you have been around me...you probably know that I have a bad habit of doing
things over and over again. I know what is going to happen...Yet I continue letting these patterns go on. Crazy! I don't know why I do it...I guess there is a name for people like me...they call it addicts or some shit like that.
It is really sad totally off subject...Have you ever craved something (not food or drugs) but craved something sad that most people normally get on a day to day basis. Then when you do get a little hint of that need...you realize how pathetic it is...but yet it feels so good to have it you just think Oh well. You do what you have to do.
I did this recently and while it was happening I realized it and it really made me think.
I am fixing to start making some changes in my life. New living arrangements, new town perhaps, new people in my life...less of some of the old ones. Insane! I am also looking at new jobs. I desperately need a drastic job change that is for the better and not the worse. Any ideas? I really need to just own my own store or be a radio dj but getting there is such a challenge when you are already in a rut.
Anyway...I am off to bed! I am really starting to love sleep. All my life I have ran from it and now it is my new best friend.