In A World

"There was a girl who talked to geese
She understood them and they her
One day she looked into a crystal stream
And saw in its bed a diamond
She picked it up and placed it in her hair
As she did so she turned into a geese
It was then revealed that the other geese
She magically had understood
Were once human like her"

My life is in a strange point right now...To a small extent I actually feel like I have some control over what
is happening. Such a first. The other night I was getting my drunk on a little bit and I had the urge to call Rob...I know I know...I didn't do it. I don't even like him yet I was craving that attention feeling he used to give me. Now...I could go out and find anyone of ten guys that want to just hook up...but yeah...that's not really what I want at this point in my life. I want consistency. Something more then sex and a few hours. Tim is great and everything that I am looking for...I just dont see it as forever...even as much as we pretend it will be. Today I wrapped up my first week at Chrysler...it was challenging...tiring but I think once I get the hang of everything
it is something that I will like. I started missing my mom today all over a car a yellow Mustang to be exact. I'm studying leases and stuff and what happens when someone dies and they have a lease or vehicle purchase and it
reminded me of my moms affairs that we had to try and settle after she passed. Crazy! she was quite a fierce woman that I will always love.