"Our Love Is Like Water"

I had one of the best times I have had in awhile with my partner in crime Reyna. We went to a gay bar...with the intention of just listening to some music and having a few drinks...Well the first place we went to was not poppin so we went to one downtown...hot mess! towards one o'clock it was packed. I ordered a vodka cranberry and the bartender refused to sale it to me...he said it was "boring" ha could have fooled me...whats the term "Got your girl feeling loose" anyway...So I see this hot guy at the bar later on...totally straight looking (which is what I'm into) anyway ... he finally comes to the bar where we are standing drinking everything...and he starts playing with my hair..oh ok...wth.. trust me though I didn't mind. hoe...anyway then he leaves and goes back to his group...at this point im hooked on him...I'm totally eye fucking him all night and he knows. We stare at each other non stop...well then he comes over and whispers in my ear asking me why I'm not on the dance floor with Reyna..Now keep in mind we are dancing and drinking (just at our spots) anyway I was like it's not like that with her...and he asks Reyna if she is gay or bi and then asks me and he introduces himself...This guy would have had to been retarded to not know that I was into him...anyway he ends of asking Reyna if she would let him kiss her wth? He then instantly made my douche list for the rest of the night...the nerve some people have. I do not regret anything an amazing night. And who knew they had a dance track to Justin Bieber haha.

I have a friend that I just refer to as "E"...
Well he made me think earlier after he came over..that some people just have a natural cool...
the way they walk, the way they talk, there interest. I wonder if I am one of those people...I know I'm a social person but natural cool...hum.

Week 2 of work starts tomorrow...
Nervous but oh well the show must go on. I'm sure with practice and time I will get better.

~KP~

In A World

"There was a girl who talked to geese
She understood them and they her
One day she looked into a crystal stream
And saw in its bed a diamond
She picked it up and placed it in her hair
As she did so she turned into a geese
It was then revealed that the other geese
She magically had understood
Were once human like her"

My life is in a strange point right now...To a small extent I actually feel like I have some control over what
is happening. Such a first. The other night I was getting my drunk on a little bit and I had the urge to call Rob...I know I know...I didn't do it. I don't even like him yet I was craving that attention feeling he used to give me. Now...I could go out and find anyone of ten guys that want to just hook up...but yeah...that's not really what I want at this point in my life. I want consistency. Something more then sex and a few hours. Tim is great and everything that I am looking for...I just dont see it as forever...even as much as we pretend it will be. Today I wrapped up my first week at Chrysler...it was challenging...tiring but I think once I get the hang of everything
it is something that I will like. I started missing my mom today all over a car a yellow Mustang to be exact. I'm studying leases and stuff and what happens when someone dies and they have a lease or vehicle purchase and it
reminded me of my moms affairs that we had to try and settle after she passed. Crazy! she was quite a fierce woman that I will always love.

Girl and the Geese

Fresh Meat Coming Through

Today I was off from T-mobile...but I had my orientation at the new place in Westlake. It was fun. I like my manager she seems like she has a lot of positive energy. Which I love in a person. I start the new job Monday. So I'm pretty excited. The building that I will be working in is so nice. There is a cafeteria...It was funny because the four people from the agency and myself were walking through during the tour and everyone looked at us...you could tell that we were new...walking with our guides and folders and stuff. Now...I have never been in prison nor do I plan on going but it is kind of what it felt like. You know...when they let the felons out in the lawn for sunlight..."FRESH MEAT COMING THROUGH" embarrassing...not to mention that my legs refused to work today and I kept tripping on air. Only two more days with T-Mobile... Then the next chapter in my life.  
After my orientation and trip to Wal-Mart (eww)
it rained forever...it was so amazing. We need the rain. Our trees look like they are just wilted from the sun and heat. However, I was not expecting a mini flood. I wonder if I was Noah if I would have just built and Arc or if I would have built like a hella fancy yacht or something for the animals to enjoy. I will leave you with that.

Take Your Time

My recruiter from Chrysler called and said that they were having trouble with my high school sending over my diploma. This doesn't surprise me... I was actually told that if you need anything from the school you have to call one of the office workers on there cell (that's small town for you.) Yeah...That just doesn't work for me. They built a million dollar plus school with shitty phones? I will be so happy when one day I have an assistant that does all of this for me. Anyway...since I need to take in a copy of my diploma when I start Monday I decided I better look for it (I know I saw it somewhere) Now...this at the same time scares me because I have moved like 13 times since graduation lol... Sad I know. Anyway I was starting to panic because I couldn't find it anywhere...I decided to give it one last shot and what do you know I found it! :) I was thinking I might have to plan a unwanted trip to Brady to try and get a copy of it.

The First Of Us

Out of all my cousins (the ones that I'm closest 2 at least)
Bonnet, the oldest is having her baby today! Growing up I was always closest to Bonnet...she stayed at my house non stop, we would bike ride etc. I have no regrets about our childhood. Today her water broke and she is bringing Bella into the world. I am so excited for her. The thing about Bonnet is...she has one of the best personalities in the world and she is so creative. If Bella has even half of her personality she will be one amazing individual (and I know she will be.)
It makes me happy because I know that Bonnet will be a great mom. She has overcome so many obstacles on her own and supports herself...not only will she be a great mom but I would be proud to say that Bonnet will be a perfect role model for her daughter. I wish that I could be there to congratulate her and welcome Bella...but I cant so I just wanted to take a moment and write about these two ladies! I'm proud that I can call them family. Prayers and thoughts lovely girls. Congratulations.

Cha Cha Changes

So I had a interview with Spherion and Chrysler...who does the financing for several brands. I finally got a for sure go...that they would like to have me on there team! I can not begin to tell you how excited I am about this. Over the last two years...retail/sales in general has literally drained me. This opportunity could have not come at a more better time. Perfect. The location of the new job is closer to my home and I don't have to drive on a 2 lane interstate and sit in traffic. I think this is one of the main reasons that I am pumped. :) Man I'm telling you... Don't give up... Pray, be thankful for what you do have, keep a positive attitude and it really helps I think. Thank you God!
Today I went to the mall by myself ... most of my shopping recently has been alone. I am not sure how I feel about this. I bought some stuff for my skin to make me fabulous and that is about it. I also met one of my old friends from T-Mobile...we had a pretty great lunch and it was great catching up with her.
I feel happy now. Only a few more changes left to happen! :)