Oh Well

People...
It never fells to amaze me how lame some people are. Not all people I did say some. People are so not honest. I wish some people would just be up front from the start. Save yourself the time and bullshit. There is a kid at work..I thought he was cute...So I was going to hit him up. I was slick on break I left my card on his desk and told him to call me. Since he is newer then me at the job he wasn't sure who I was or anything. We started texting and he never calls. Randomly he tells me that he doesn't date people in the work place to avoid conflict but he wants to be friends. Now..when I tell you this kid text a lot ... It's a lot. He tells me he is single and all this stuff...then I randomly call him tonight and some Mexican guy answers and is all ghetto-fied and is like someone from this number called my boyfriend. I was like Um well I think not and hung up. When just an hour ago this kid asked me If I would go to the movies with him on Saturday. Random I tell you. Now I can't wait to be mean to this kid and make him feel like he doesn't exist in my world.

Work is going good. I think I'm slowly but surely getting better. It's not a job I think I want to stick with .... I mean I suck at math and even  the title "Financial Agent" makes me feel a little sick. I will keep it in the mean time but explore my options. I know it sounds really gay but I think I really want to go to hair school. Tony and Guy is opening a new academy right by my house. Women tend to love me and I love to style and gossip so I think I'm going to seek information and do it. I don't think I will ever be satisfied with a job unless I'm happy - or big banking at least.

For the past four night one of my friends Reyna and I have been working out. We do some crazy hills and we jog a bit. It isn't much but I tell you...When you do nothing normally except walk in the mall...this little routine seems and feels like madness. I have so much energy afterwords and I feel great... I just wish it wasn't so freaking hot outside.

It's Time I Passed It On

I've had an interesting week...to say the least...I'm excited a new week is peaking around the corner...I freaken
pray that its better then this last one. So it pretty much starts out at work. We have been going through this intense training process. When you think of what we get paid hourly you think no wonder why...look at all this shit we have to know and learn. I have this book on my desk that I refer to as "My Bible" it's a mess it talks about everything from working the systems to how to send out a repossession team to pick up one of our vehicles etc. etc. this book is huge. Now I'm the first one to admit that it's great having a desk reference to assist you. Keep in mind that it is not great to have a book that is so big and filled with so much information you cannot find anything. We have this system called the dialer - it calls accounts that are delinquent and that have not had contact. So we have a policy that when you have a client on the phone you have to raise your hand to be assisted just to make sure you can close the deal and don't mess up. So I raised my hand and this guy (who I thought was cute) is just listening to this call staring at me..I'm like obviously my call is more important since I have a direct question...well anyway he finally comes over to me and I ask my question well he will not help me...I'm like that's great cant you decide to be a dick when Im not on the phone with a customer that is work. It's funny how someone can be on my hes cute list to making my douche list in just a matter of seconds.

Tim - We have a strange relationship. Friday  night we almost acted like lesbians. We have never really had a real fight yet. Till then...that is. He said somethings that really had me put up some walls. Were ok now...he is kind of funny because he is sentimental...he gave me a four leaf clover that his grandfather had given to him when he was little ( this clover is real ) and he took it to 3 tours to Iraq and to all these different countries and stuff..to Sheriff school and he still has it ... that amazes me... anyway he gave it to me because he believes it brings good luck and I def could use it :) lol

Cowboys start tonight... off to Fox and Hound

I Fooled Myself

So have you ever felt semi comfortable in your skin? like not dressed up but you just feel good
and you look halfway decent....Your getting your drink on a little and your having a good time with friends...then...As it always happens...someone rolls out a camera and start capturing those moments...then the
next day you look back and your like...what the hell? I cant believe I was out like that? Am I really that fat? lol and you think damn you mind for tricking me last night.

Ps: I don't look like this...im working on a law suit with Sony now...I'll own that company by the end of this!
How dare you try to make me take a bad picture.
However, I did meet a new girl that is amazing and I had a good time. So I guess that does matter also.

PS: If you are wondering why I look so white and pasty its because half of the malls in Ft Worth don't carry MAC products so there ya go.

"Our Love Is Like Water"

I had one of the best times I have had in awhile with my partner in crime Reyna. We went to a gay bar...with the intention of just listening to some music and having a few drinks...Well the first place we went to was not poppin so we went to one downtown...hot mess! towards one o'clock it was packed. I ordered a vodka cranberry and the bartender refused to sale it to me...he said it was "boring" ha could have fooled me...whats the term "Got your girl feeling loose" anyway...So I see this hot guy at the bar later on...totally straight looking (which is what I'm into) anyway ... he finally comes to the bar where we are standing drinking everything...and he starts playing with my hair..oh ok...wth.. trust me though I didn't mind. hoe...anyway then he leaves and goes back to his group...at this point im hooked on him...I'm totally eye fucking him all night and he knows. We stare at each other non stop...well then he comes over and whispers in my ear asking me why I'm not on the dance floor with Reyna..Now keep in mind we are dancing and drinking (just at our spots) anyway I was like it's not like that with her...and he asks Reyna if she is gay or bi and then asks me and he introduces himself...This guy would have had to been retarded to not know that I was into him...anyway he ends of asking Reyna if she would let him kiss her wth? He then instantly made my douche list for the rest of the night...the nerve some people have. I do not regret anything an amazing night. And who knew they had a dance track to Justin Bieber haha.

I have a friend that I just refer to as "E"...
Well he made me think earlier after he came over..that some people just have a natural cool...
the way they walk, the way they talk, there interest. I wonder if I am one of those people...I know I'm a social person but natural cool...hum.

Week 2 of work starts tomorrow...
Nervous but oh well the show must go on. I'm sure with practice and time I will get better.

~KP~

In A World

"There was a girl who talked to geese
She understood them and they her
One day she looked into a crystal stream
And saw in its bed a diamond
She picked it up and placed it in her hair
As she did so she turned into a geese
It was then revealed that the other geese
She magically had understood
Were once human like her"

My life is in a strange point right now...To a small extent I actually feel like I have some control over what
is happening. Such a first. The other night I was getting my drunk on a little bit and I had the urge to call Rob...I know I know...I didn't do it. I don't even like him yet I was craving that attention feeling he used to give me. Now...I could go out and find anyone of ten guys that want to just hook up...but yeah...that's not really what I want at this point in my life. I want consistency. Something more then sex and a few hours. Tim is great and everything that I am looking for...I just dont see it as forever...even as much as we pretend it will be. Today I wrapped up my first week at Chrysler...it was challenging...tiring but I think once I get the hang of everything
it is something that I will like. I started missing my mom today all over a car a yellow Mustang to be exact. I'm studying leases and stuff and what happens when someone dies and they have a lease or vehicle purchase and it
reminded me of my moms affairs that we had to try and settle after she passed. Crazy! she was quite a fierce woman that I will always love.

Girl and the Geese

Fresh Meat Coming Through

Today I was off from T-mobile...but I had my orientation at the new place in Westlake. It was fun. I like my manager she seems like she has a lot of positive energy. Which I love in a person. I start the new job Monday. So I'm pretty excited. The building that I will be working in is so nice. There is a cafeteria...It was funny because the four people from the agency and myself were walking through during the tour and everyone looked at us...you could tell that we were new...walking with our guides and folders and stuff. Now...I have never been in prison nor do I plan on going but it is kind of what it felt like. You know...when they let the felons out in the lawn for sunlight..."FRESH MEAT COMING THROUGH" embarrassing...not to mention that my legs refused to work today and I kept tripping on air. Only two more days with T-Mobile... Then the next chapter in my life.  
After my orientation and trip to Wal-Mart (eww)
it rained forever...it was so amazing. We need the rain. Our trees look like they are just wilted from the sun and heat. However, I was not expecting a mini flood. I wonder if I was Noah if I would have just built and Arc or if I would have built like a hella fancy yacht or something for the animals to enjoy. I will leave you with that.